And he's out

So I've recently become very tired of the men who just cannot get their shit together and make a move. I knew this guy had said I was cute since May, and I probably gave him my number in July. Two weeks ago, he finally seems like he's about to make a move (he walks me home -we're both drunk - at 3 am on a saturday). But, we said goodbye and parted at the door. This week, he comes to my friend's birthday party around midnight by himself to see me. We danced, we had a good time, and when it was time to leave, we hop in a cab back to my place.

In the cab I start to hold his hand, and something turns off in him. I sense it right away, so I said, "what's going on in your head?" He doesn't say anything for a while. We're back at my place, on my couch (I sat down first, and he sits on the same couch) - and he says, "Well, you know I have that girlfriend." Umm... WHAT? No, I don't know you're IN A RELATIONSHIP with someone else!

I got a little angry, but I didn't show it. So after I kick him to the curb, I send him a text: "Not trying to be mean, but why did you want to meet up tonight?" And his lame text back was something like "I thought you'd want to hang out - nothing more." Yea right. Well, hopefully I helped him realize that he likes that other girl more than he thought??? Oh lord my dating life is a nightmare.

-M

Why haven't you called

So, this whole natural approach was going well for quite a while. I was finding myself concentrating on me, and all of a sudden every night I was hanging out at bars with only men, and my dating life was looking like there were some prospects in it ...Until this weekend.

I met a guy at a coffee shop on thursday, and gave him my card. On friday, I hung out with a guy who had mentioned he thought I was cute to mutual friends before, and I wrote my number on a napkin for him. Now I'm just waiting - and this is the part that I hate. When will he call? Or will he call at all?

It's all a mind-game really. I need to tell myself he won't call, and then he definitely will. I know boys are so stupid, so I have convinced myself that maybe he accidentally wiped something with the napkin and therefore lost my number. Or the guy who has my card - maybe he misplaced it? But honestly, I think they just aren't that interested and if I'm doing the natural thing, I shouldn't let it bother me. This was just step 1 and I must expect that steps 2 and 3 don't always occur for someone who has gotten to step 1. Right?

Of course I saw an unmarked number in my phone yesterday, got excited, picked up, and realized it was this guy who I didn't want to hear from. I avoided a date, hung up, and promptly labelled the number "Do not pick up" into my phone. By the way, there is a great website that supposedly emails the guy who didn't call and gives him the opportunity to explain why. Favorite answer in the multiple choice section include "I actually think you're just crazy." Touche, touche.

To be direct or not be direct

A group of women sit around a table over scrumptious dinner and wine. They talk about their careers, their families, their relationships or lack thereof. At some point in the conversation one woman will inevitably ask, "What do I do?" and all the women give their opinions about what is probably going through her partner's mind, how she can resolve the situation, and what the possible outcomes may be.

Why can't we just let things be? For a woman in her 30's, she is ready to move things along for a variety of reasons, but the main one being - why wait? Will this man ever be ready? Women are generally impulsive when it comes to matters of the heart, and men are not. We convince ourselves the direct approach is the right one. Men will give us just enough so we hold on, when we really shouldn't.

A friend of mine told me to let things be and let my dating life evolve naturally. I am an action-oriented person, so this is difficult for me. I generally want to make things happen. I am impatient and impulsive (a VERY awful combination). But I am going to try this new approach. I don't quite know what it means, but I guess I'll let things happen naturally (isn't my impulsiveness natural?) on HIS end. It's going to be frustrating.

-M

Dating vs. Relationships

Over the past few months, I've blurred the line between dating and relationships. I must define both so that I am clear again. Dating is when you go out with someone and experience different things with them. Dating has no future or commitment, and can be romantic but need not be. A relationship, on the other hand, is a commitment that both parties (hopefully willingly) have decided to partake in. The parameters are clear, and future goals should be as well.

I realize that I truly enjoy dating. Yesterday a friend mentioned that she really wanted a relationship and I think, given all the disappointment I've experienced, I don't actually want or need a relationship right now, maybe ever. I see how often my friends get let down because their expectations are too high. I myself have let things "fade away" without thinking twice about it.

The bottom line is that when you like someone and want to be in a relationship and they don't, it sucks. But we all must recognize that we should only be in relationships where both parties are excited about the prospect. Timing has a lot to do with it, personalities are not the only factors involved.

So I will continue dating, and I will continue blogging. But I can't promise anything about relationships in my posts. Generally, can't promise anything about relationships period...

-M

Vulnerability

I'm still dating, but trying my best to stay focused on one guy at a time. The problem with this is, I don't want to become too focused on anyone prematurely - because I don't want to get hurt. For that matter, to be honest, I'm just sick of wasting my time.

A few days ago a friend of mine was talking about how to break up with the guy she's dating. She knows he's not the one for her, but she's having fun. I've been down that road several times and told myself that it's ok. The problem now is that I feel like I just wasted time with those guys. I mean, it was fun and maybe I learned something but in the end, the break-ups were too damn hard. Getting over a guy takes me so long that in the end I need double if not triple the amount of time I was in the relationship to get over it.

So where does that leave me? Trying not to be attached to anyone. Trying not to get too close that I could get hurt. But in the end, love is about vulnerability. You have to submit yourself to being a bit vulnerable, or you'll never be able to truly be in love. So I guess I won't let myself fall in love again until the guy is roped in first. After all, why should I have to get hurt first?

-M

How to break up with a woman

A friend of mine just had her heart broken by a putz who strung her along for 5 years. Since there are mostly men following our blog, I wanted to give them a list of rules for the future break-ups in their lives:

IN ORDER NOT TO BE AN ASSHOLE:

• You must not sleep with her at all once you have decided to break up (to clarify for men who think it's not a big deal to do other things: this includes all forms of sexual behavior. You may give her a hug when you leave the premises, but that is IT. NO JOKE.)
  
  
• You must make the whole thing one of the hardest things you've ever had to do emotionally, even if it's not. (To solidify, you SHOULD CRY. Also NO JOKE).
  
  
• If your woman is over the age of 28, make her feel like she is the closest you have ever gotten to marriage (Even if it's not). You must make her feel UNIQUE to you and your relationships. Say that's what makes this so much harder. But say it's not fair to her to keep going in the comfort of a relationship when you know it's not going to end in marriage. THIS IS ABOUT HER, NOT YOU. NO JOKE.
  
  
• DO NOT bring up any one else as the reason you are breaking up. She can easily be pissed at someone else but make sure the blame is all on you (that is the LEAST asshole thing to do - trust me).
  
  
• SAY YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH HER when she is ready. But be clear that that should not be for a while because you will both need distance - make her feel like you need that too because it's an asshole move to say you're ready now, because that implies NO EMOTION.
  
  
• I CANNOT EMPHASIZE EMOTION ENOUGH. Remember that women ARE NOT RATIONAL in the same way men are. She will understand better if you explain that it's JUST A FEELING that you know she's not the one.

Good luck to all you men trying not to be assholes, and sorry for the women who are dating them.

-M

Finding "the One:" Perfect Condo and the Perfect Man Parallels

S and I have both dropped off the face of the earth for one reason in particular: we're both looking for "the one," and it is F*ing difficult. And the parallels between our search for the perfect condo and the perfect man are a little out of control.

Here is the thing: I am just too old for drama - in the condo I want, or the man I want. I mean, a really dirty apartment that clearly has "damage" just won't do, because I'm just not willing to put in the time for the high maintenance needed. I definitely am not in the game for a "fixer upper" and I certainly will not tolerate any major issues.

My real estate agent and my parents are in agreement that I am just too picky. I think most of my friends may agree about this. But shouldn't I be? I'm forking over my life-savings, investing in a place/person who I might be "in" (sorry for the vulgarity) for the rest of my life. I believe I have the ability to be choosy.

So every time I see one, everything is great until I find one little flaw.

The other day, it may have gone too far. Everything I wanted was there. Perfect location, perfect hard 'wood' floors, the sun definitely lightened up the apartment enough (didn't even need lights on!), clean... but there just wasn't any chemistry. I am talking about the apartment. Sort of.

There have been multiple instances where I realized that I condo/man I had seen before would have been great for me, but by the time I looked back, the listing was "under contract." I am just not quick enough, and the good ones seem to get snatched up when I'm not looking.

S pulled out of the game all together. She is terrified of committing to a place. She may say that it's because she "has grown to like her rental apartment" but let's be honest, she likes that it's a month-to-month deal and she can pick up and leave any day.

I'm afraid I may never find it. The perfect condo, or the perfect man. They say that when it's right, "you'll just know." I'm 30 now. I'll keep you updated.

-M